When Oceans Rise

I wrote down a quote from my Fine Arts class three years ago, and today it describes how I feel to a T. 

"Music allows us to move around those big invisible pieces of ourselves and rearrange our insides so that we can express what we feel even when we can't talk about it."        -Karl Paulnack   

Thursday night, I heard the song "Oceans (Where Feet May Fail)" off of the new Hillsong CD for the first time.  I spent a few hours in the practice rooms playing the piano and soaking up the goodness of this song and its lyrics yesterday.  This has been my prayer for this week, and I have felt encouraged and lifted up continuously.  

Today was my second clinical rotation in critical care, and I feel completely drained.  I put this song on repeat for the drive home and wept as I attempted to grasp the things I experienced during my 12 hour shift. In the clinical setting, it is easy to 'celebrate' a moment when something eventful happens or you get to watch a new procedure or learn about a unique disease process.  And then you realize that behind that event or that disease is a person with a family and a story.  I don't know if I will ever be able to forget the way I felt this afternoon.  All I know is that as I stood there, I knew I had two options: to either burst into tears or keep my eyes above the waves.  

                               "Oceans (Where Feet May Fail)"

You call me out upon the waters
The great unknown where feet may fail
And there I find You in the mystery
In oceans deep
My faith will stand

And I will call upon Your name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise
My soul will rest in Your embrace
For I am Yours and You are mine

Your grace abounds in deepest waters
Your sovereign hand
Will be my guide
Where feet may fail and fear surrounds me
You've never failed and You won't start now

So I will call upon Your name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise
My soul will rest in Your embrace
For I am Yours and You are mine

Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior

I will call upon Your Name
Keep my eyes above the waves
My soul will rest in Your embrace
I am Yours and You are mine

Beyond the scope of nursing and clinicals, these words challenge me to truly trust in God as I head into a season of unknowns and new beginnings.  He has never failed, and He won't start now.  He will lead me and guide me in the deepest of waters.  There is nothing to fear.  

What 'oceans' are rising in your life? Are you resting in His embrace?